victory is mine by Jamie Dedes

This one holds special significance for me. As a kind of cri de coeur (cri de guerre?), I think it spoke both to her battle with illness and her battles overall. 36 hours before she died, we were speaking with her doctor. Her doctor said two things that will stick with me forever. First, “she’s really tough, isn’t she?” And, second, “her lungs still sound clear.” Victory was hers.

—Richard Lingua

victory is mine, a poem

 you thrive on fear,
 but i slow you, stay you, sink my nails into you
 as i sink my nails into the moon
 knock if you must, but i have barred the door
 i have hung a magic amulet from the rafters
 my screams rise silent as a roar, black as a sun
 they rise from a living heart, pierce the numb sky
 my laugh is a cackle scratching your yellow eyes
 i grow tired but spring back again,
 a wilting rose newly watered
 night done and i’ve won battle over
 the puce and putrid that filled my lungs –
 i breathe, i breathe and tenderly i poem
 as if there would ever and always be another sun
 i am here to race and tear, to rail and gag
 still i laugh, still i love
 come you must at close of day, but
 your soul is prose and mine is poem,
 triumph belongs to the Eternal in me
 …..victory is mine 

©2016 Jamie Dedes
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